ENVISAGE

Hello
I'm just a shy fellow
Dreaming of living in meadows
Where the sun always shines yellow

Sipping on hot espresso
Travelling to Mex-i-co
Maybe I'll head to Toreto
Este es nuestro momento

Concentrate on Conversations Compensate for Contemplations Celebrate rather than focusing on the negative connotations

Everything seems to come around I must admit
I had a fear of the hurdles of life
I got over it

Imagine for a second that humans were instruments
I could see you as a guitar Beautiful, elegant

You can't be played any type of way.
You need someone who understands how you are played.

By played I'm talking about knowing what chords to strum. To reveal the alluring melodies that it will eventually become

Revealing some of your qualities even by the flick of my thumb. Then the rest by the other fingers All played as one.

But this is just a dream
An illusion
Where the dreams are looked up not loosened
The beginning of the conclusion
A problem with no solution

Me playing with my guitar... Its stupid though but here you go

http://soundcloud.com/dynomo1/acting-a-fool-but-still

Telepathy

I want to experience what you have
Grasp the things you have grasp
cry when you cry
laugh when you laugh

I want to put my hand in your mouth so I can feel what you're saying.
I want to sit next to God so that hear what you're praying.

Deep into your mind
Beautiful thoughts

Purely refined
Close to your heart

That's where my love for you start.
It will never depart
Like a paintbrush from a canvas
You are the art

It's pretty clear cut
Straight path
no shortcuts
Just do the math

You + me = LOVE
Multiply by time = forever
Hopefully no division is needed
When We are both together.

Corny much?
Maybe
Sorry I can't help it
I know I'm crazy

About the future
No more hurt will be remembered Through paper or notebook
Laptop and computers
Iphones or ipads
No need for any sutures

Because I won't let it get that far
From seeing a scar
Hey you see that? In the mirror? No?
Well I'm seeing a star.

You have to believe me.
You snicker or cough
Not Making me feel distraught
More like a astronaut
I'm about to Lift off!!!!!!!

Live not on evil (mirror)

I imagine myself the Same as you....the things I went through..that wouldn't be true
Through all the trail and tribulations Peoples emasculations
Two facers and all the hating
Anger through me escaping
But I have to chill....cooling down Thinking of a plan what I'm doing now
Hanging with all my friends or what have you
Go to eat.....play games....and have a couple laughs too.
But eventually it ends and I don't like that
Because the feelings I have will be heading right back
I have to Beware of the people I hang around
One second they are your friend then the next you are on the background
Achieving on things I've found
Bob and weave through crazy things that keep feelings abound
No enimies...indeed
They follow I lead
You grow from a seed
Translucent as your breed
Which is hating
Discrminating
I'm still waiting On the day
Anticipating
Reinstating What I say
Annotating
Infiltrating On what I feel
Inside the illusion of
Whats fake or real
Or True or false
You'll see results
Be it'll cost
Your time is lost
Life as adults

Fear

My biggest fear is
Love
It might seem weird thats one of my biggest fears. But no matter how things might appear thats one of my biggest fears.
which is Love
Im not just talking about one type, all are included and you must have eluded the fact I was talking about a special one of the opposite sex.. ...thats not the only Type
But thats next.
Not wanting to blur the major context of what I mean by love. Im afraid of love because of the fact that it sometimes can be obvious one second but in another second unexpected and also interjected with the coating of mystery.
Why do we love?
What is real love?
Its something I probably shouldn't question, I haven't learned my lesson, suffering transgressions, and peoples impressions or suggestions on their view on how love can be expressed. Honestly my whole thought process on what is real love , is that no one knows until they experienced it..
How do I know if that's already happen to me or not?

Never enough

Love with you could be for any reason. It can withstand the coldest or the hottest season. I think I'm getting sick I need some medicine. One dose of you will make me better again. I see flashes, lights, or maybe sparks. We make the fire in our hearts if it gets dark. I'm telling you my thoughts and dealings. You on my mind give me one great feeling. Don't be scared because I can protect you. Just make sure I'm the one ur next to. I heard that if you love something let it go. I understand. if you don't .I'll just exaplain it so... It means you might feel your not good enough So you let her find someone better. Sounds rough. iknow.ican.think something better. It's how ithink as I'm putting it together.

AND THE WINNER IS.......

Hey its Justin just wanted to show you my latest. It could have been better its certainly not one of my greatest. Without further ado let this piece expose. you vicariously seeing how my life flows.
The streets are heartless and cold. The moments past as time fold But the lights are shining That's what I see when I'm searching, finding. Life is not fair so that's what I have to live with. It loves to play games that I can't deal with. If I'm really smart about it I could win .
Be swift.
Because there are no rules no times no shifts. If I cheat then would it make me any better? I'll just roll with the punches I get. I keep going , strong, faster then ever. Then have a great feeling of accomplishment.
life is good with battles but not with wars. It's gets harder I tell you really. Sometimes I don't know what in store. Someday I know it's really going to kill me.
I won't go down without a fight For what is honest and right I try to keep a positive look But defeat is coming from the path I took
I accept my lost. I took it well.
It knocked me down hard as I fell . It was fast like I was beaming . Get back up Justin even though you are bleeding. It's a never ending fight til my death Wont stop til my last breath
Funny thing is I'll be victorious That time will when I'll be glorious. No more games to play, no more cheats, No more worthless time to waste to get beat. It'll be a great day that I'll enjoy. Screaming real loud "I did it, oh joy!!" By my own volition I share this writing with you today. Well that's the end or finé, conclusioné, like the italian's say.

The intro of me.....

This is the intro of me.
It all started. January 24, 1993
When a boy named Justin Allen Hayes came to be.

From that point on it could've went down hill. But my family backed me up. If not, I would've been killed.

Just thinking to myself what my life could have been. If didn't worry about my now's and stick with the then's

Fast forward!!

Life changed in the year 03'
My mother is still here the other parent you won't see.
Had to grow up fast not only for me EVERYBODY!! Because if I wasn't strong the others around me wouldn't be.

I Had no father figure since I was ten. I became who I am by my family and friends.

Let's change the subject before I shed some tears. Now were headed to my middle and high school years.

Salisbury, Maryland. At Wicomico Middle School. New town , new place, don't be treated like a fool.

Fresh meat walks through the halls of new. I boasted, I bragged, I thought I knew what to do.

Those years went by fast.

I don't remember much. I'd say this and that about such and such.

Lol Let's skip to high school..

These years change me alot. Morals go out the window. Those things I forgot.

Milford high school. Wasn't bad at first. Managing to make it through. I could have been worst.

Lots of pressures, thinking I was going from them easy. When I go away from one, it comes back stronger. Believe me.

I manage to make it. things I'm faced it with. Smoking, drinking, easy girls.

That's what I see. Trying to make me who I'm not wanting to be.

I won't dumb down to their levels.
Doing bad things all wanting to be rebels.

Times get serious . Not always for play. I'm speaking the truth please listen to what I say.

Knowing what lies ahead will be very tough. I admit, I will need getting this stuff. This is only the beginning there is still more sometime to come. Just a big glimpse of things that I have done. In the end I , I mean we, will be victorious Going through the finish line saying I WON!! I hope who ever reads this won't forget who I am. Just as if you can see my life through a video cam. Thanks to all who take a view. This writing wouldn't be if it wasn't for ........ YOU!!!!!

My first Blogger post lol

Well I'm excited about my first Blogging experience and I hope that this will shed some light on the things that go through my crazy head of mind.... This is a drama free environment unlike facebook... I will be expressing my feelings and bit either through random thoughts or in a format of poetry... Whichever fits best. Thx for tuning in whoever is reading this.